this past two weeks have been tearing me apart
and i have been acting fine towards everyone the entire time
ughh
so much frustration inside

i wish dena lived here
i hope things have not ended between us
i miss her a lot, even tho she's "done with boys for now"
ridiculous

i miss so much from far back
i was reading old journals

molly's old account
jessi's old
ha
we have really grown up

but i just miss those days
me and molly use to kickback all the time
now jimmy threw me out
idk why that guy hates me, i never did anything
shit id rather be friends with him than have lost me and molly's chill days

and i use to hang out with all of my other friends
but now its so different
we hardly even hangout
not with molly
not with jessi
not with allison
i really don't like it
reminiscing is not something i want to be doing

i guess this is why college comes at this time
i don't want to lose everything tho

all i can hope is things get better
cuz i feel something slipping away inside of me each day

im sorry if i upset anyone with this
i just had to somehow let this out

Current Mood: nostalgic